So Blue

Just like I couldn't really stand the thought of dressing your sister all in pink, I don't think I want all blue for you. I figure I will end up with mostly blue, but I don't really want to start off that way. It seems so boring. And i do think it is true, a lot of the boys things i saw were pretty boring, at least when you are little. I like cars and animals and bikes, but am not a friend of the sports stuff.

Hello my son.

Strong

Your father felt you kick 2 days ago. It was pretty exciting. I feel like you are a stronger child than your sister was. Not that she was a weakling, she was lifting her head off my shoulder at a very early age. BUT, your heart beat was stronger sooner and i definatly felt you kick sooner.

At the doctor's appointment you measured about 4 days older than you were. i don't know that we can put much stock in that, but maybe you are just a bigger kid. Hopefully, that means you will come earlier as well, but who knows!

We are starting to get really excited about seeing you. It is strange to refer to you as your name. I almost want to call you billy, but I think doing so would also be very sad. I miss my little brother.

I am glad you sister is getting a little brother though. Hopefully, you two will be very different individuals, but alike enough to be good friends. Either way, you are going to have similiar experiences so at least that will bind you together.

a boy

A boy. HURRAY. i cried when i found out. i really wanted you to be a boy.

i have also put on 10 lbs since the start of the pregnancy. Not too shabby.

Funny thing

It is a funny thing to catch a reflection of myself from the side. I can hardly beleive it is me. it is weird to carry around a spare tire.

People notice now that I am pregnant. Strangers will ask me about you.

I went and saw some people from church today who just had a baby. I walked into the room and she was nursing.

I really can't wait until you get here.

Lots of MOVING

i feel lots of moving in there.
i think i am in for a bumpy ride.

i am getting really excited. i find out in less than a week what sex you are going to be. I wish i already knew because there are so many good sales to hit.

another appointment

I had another appointment today and got to hear your heartbeat clean and strong. I don't remember your sister's being so strong, but that might have more to do with my worry about her.

I am carrying you low. The doctor told me, you would be low, but sometimes i feel like you are are going to fall out. I am hoping when you get a little bigger, you won't be sitting so low in my pelvis so i can walk without feeling like you are going to fall out.

i have only gained 5 lbs. Which is what I gained last time. I am right on track to gain 45 or 50 lbs again. Hurray for me.

sorry

not so good at keeping up with this blog, but i have been thinking about you a lot.

i feel like my life has calmed down enough that I can actually start to get exciting about you getting here. I know of 3 people that will give birth in the next 3 months and i have to say, i am envious.

today, i bought you some corduroy overalls and a sweater to match. They can be for either a boy or a girl.

I am continuing to get bigger. i think i weigh 171 now. it is hard to tell because the stupid scale your father bought sits right under the sink.

14 weeks and counting. Now officially into my second trimester. tick tick tick

Heartbeat and checkup

I heard your heartbeat yesterday. It was beautiful. All day I felt like I was on a high. I was worried about you. I feel pregnant, which is a good sign, but with so much stress early in the pregnancy, I not would let myself believe that you were here to stay.

But I think you are.

I told all my internet friends. Telling people is fun because people email me that I haven't spoken to in ages. Friends from college are emailing me.

I look forward to meeting you. You are turning into a little person faster than your sister did. Maybe it is because I have already had a baby and know what to expect. I am also looking forward to having you but my anticipation is different than with your sister. With your sister, I was all into being a mom and what would the birth be like and would you even be okay. With you, I just want to get you out and start moving forward with my life. I am not terribly worried about your health, because I feel very good about it. I am curious what your sex is, but it isn't something I dwell on. To me, you are already you, and I feel like that is okay. I feel peace and like I can deal with it. Maybe I have the opportunity to feel that way because your sister was such an easy baby.

She loves babies. I can't wait to see you two together. It makes my heart swell with joy and pride to think about you two together. She is a neat person. You are going to have fun.

10 weeks

How your baby's growing:Though he's barely the size of a kumquat — a little over an inch or so long, crown to bottom — and weighs less than a quarter of an ounce, your baby has now completed the most critical portion of his development. This is the beginning of the so-called fetal period, a time when the tissues and organs in his body rapidly grow and mature. He's swallowing fluid and kicking up a storm. Vital organs — including his kidneys, intestines, brain, and liver (now making red blood cells in place of the disappearing yolk sac) — are in place and starting to function, though they'll continue to develop throughout your pregnancy. If you could take a peek inside your womb, you'd spot minute details, like tiny nails forming on fingers and toes (no more webbing) and peach-fuzz hair beginning to grow on tender skin.

In other developments: Your baby's limbs can bend now. His hands are flexed at the wrist and meet over his heart, and his feet may be long enough to meet in front of his body. The outline of his spine is clearly visible through translucent skin, and spinal nerves are beginning to stretch out from his spinal cord. Your baby's forehead temporarily bulges with his developing brain and sits very high on his head, which measures half the length of his body. From crown to rump, he's about 1 1/4 inches long. In the coming weeks, your baby will again double in size — to nearly 3 inches.

LIES

I was prepared to feel awful. I was prepared for this pregnancy to be totally different.

It isn't. I am different. I don't exercise as much. i am more stressed in some ways, less in others. i am carrying around a 27 pound worm with me most places I go, but the preganancy, it isn't much different.

i feel okay. not too tired. I eat like a dawm horse. I want lots and lots of hamburgers.

i eat a lot of salami, something I didn't let myself have before.

so. Not much different, maybe my babies will be the same as well. Wouldn't that be a blessing. My friends would hate that I had two angel babies right in a row. Propped up for all to see how genetics blessed me.

until they became a toddler.

Out

I am out of my regular pants. I don't think I can wear even my fat pants anymore.

I am also out about the pregnancey. If I show up in maternity clothes, I might as well tell my boss.

Hello in there

We saw you today for the first time. I mostly saw your yolk sack, but your little heart was there beating away. It was pretty amazing.

You are due on May 8th, but I don't expect to see you for at least a week after that.

I am starting to feel excited. I was waiting to see a heartbeat before I got too excited, but now, i am feeling fairly comfortable. These next two or three weeks are going to be pretty hectic with the move and everything, but if we can make it through that, i know you are here to stay.

Run in Fear

My upset stomach and acid runs in fear of the antiacids. I have had barely a touch of it since I bought some. I haven't even had to take them.

BUT, running in general may be good for the soul, but it isn't necessarily good for the belly.

We go to the doctor tomorrow. I hope you are still here. I am starting to get worried.

Week 6

From Baby Center

This week's major developments: The nose, mouth, and ears that you'll spend so much time kissing in eight months are beginning to take shape. If you could see into your uterus, you'd find an oversize head and dark spots where your baby's eyes and nostrils are starting to form. His emerging ears are marked by small depressions on the sides of the head, and his arms and legs by protruding buds. His heart is beating about 100 to 160 times a minute — almost twice as fast as yours — and blood is beginning to course through his body. His intestines are developing, and the bud of tissue that will give rise to his lungs has appeared. His pituitary gland is forming, as are the rest of his brain, muscles, and bones. Right now, your baby is a quarter of an inch long, about the size of a lentil bean.

I don't think it will ever cease to amaze it. I have a little one growing in my tummy. I am going to be a mommy again. I am in awe by the amazing little creature that I will get to know. It is simply amazing.

On another note, my pants are starting to get tight. I don't care what other people say, I gain weight quickly.

Boobs

I think my boobs grew today while I was taking a nap in the back of the car coming back from a site visit. i woke up and something was definitely different. maybe you are here to stay.

The Curse of the Mommy's

It seems like everytime someone talks about a symptom they have I get it. Like last night, a friend was complaining about how she was so tired all she could do was lay around the couch. I felt okay until about 7:30. I was asleep by 8:30.

Still feeling queasy. i made a doctor's appointment for the 18th. That will be over 6 weeks. Hopefully, we will get to see your little heart beating.

llc

Brother

When I mention you, your sister calls you a baby brother.

Sweet Vacation

Your father and I ditched your sister and went on a shopping spree. It was there that I really started to look at the maternity clothes. I AM NOT READY TO BE FAT AGAIN.

I feel like it hasn't been that long that I have been a normal size. For a while there, I was even getting hot. Now, i feel like my belly has already swelled, and I am not even 5 weeks in. IT SUCKS.

I am starting to feel bad, which is good and bad. Bad because i feel bad, but good because I can assume that things are progressing with you like we planned.

Oh Hope of hopes I want you to stay. I want you to be born in May and give me the summer off. I want you to be born when I finish my degree.

So you are here

But are you here to stay?
I don't know.

I feel some mild cramping which makes me think you aren't. It makes me think that maybe this time around you aren't ready. If you aren't I am fine with that. This is going to be a big year anyhow.

I hope you are here though. The first couple of days are always so romantic. It is always so fun to think about what you are going to be like. Will you be an easy baby like your sister? I hope so. I deserve to well mannered little babys. Will you be a girl or a boy? Either one is fine. I hope for a boy, but I already experience with a girl.

So hello baby. May 8th is your lunar due date. We are looking forward to your arrival.

is it?

The line was faint this morning? Are you coming to see us in May?